Sunday, September 23, 2007

底線

當你愛一個人,底線是可以無限伸延的,但隨著痛苦的經驗越來越多,人會對這種盲目的愛麻木,會想為什麼就不能先顧及自己的感受? 於是人愛得不再全心全意,有所保留.

所說的底線其實就是遷就的程度.通常關係越深,其底線也越深.

"不夾,不夾。" 這是吾聽到朋友對於Z和她的意見.每一次聽到Z都感受到一點點的失望,但都無損Z的熱情,因為自信愛是能解決任何問題.但,現實就是這樣,Z超越了對方的底線,關係也就完了.

你認為是很夾的人,那只是個錯覺.夾,只因為你愛得多一點,你的底線定得較低也遷就多一點,所有東西都比對方多一點,僅此而已.

期望得到公平的對待也是吾愚不可及的想法.明顯吾是愛得比較深的一方,對她的底線,只會比她所定的更低,那可能還有機會公平?在愛情面前,公平,只是個笑話.但公平與否對吾已不重要,因Z是心甘情願,相信她也知道.

想愛得舒服,就得找一個他愛你,多於你愛他的人.不用太多,多一點點已足夠.

最怕是自己沒了底線,一味委屈自己迎合別人,濫當好人之餘還傷害自己.

底線,除了經驗,還需要淚水才能換得來....... 對嗎? Z ?

House Of Cards

Turn off the fire 熄掉火種
Switch off the lights 把燈光關上
it's time to retire 是時候要退下來
it's no time to fight 已沒有時間去爭取
this house is in pieces 這心房雖在修補中
i never saw it's falling 但未有墮落過
it was such a beautiful thing 這是多美好的事情
what does it matter now? 但...現在都無關重要
you'll never come home 妳永不會回來了
what does it matter now? 一切都不重要了
you'll never come home with me again 妳永不會與我回家了
not now 不是現在......
i brush the bubble 我的幻想破滅
and i broke your heart 我令妳心碎
it seems i am in trouble 我惹了大麻煩
let's go back to the start 讓我們回到當初好嗎
cos all i want is you 因妳是我所想
and all i have is wrong 而我現有的都是錯
and just to have you back in the place where you belong 只想帶妳回到我倆所屬的地方
you understand me when i don't even understand myself 妳明白我 連我也不明瞭自已
what does it matter now 但現在又有什麼用?
you'll never come home 妳永不會回來了.....

To The Winter

Called you on your private number 打電話去你的私人號碼

Left a message on your mobile phone 留下口信在你的電話

Even tried the operator 甚至連接線生也嘗試過

When I call, no one's home 當我打給你卻沒人接聽

Trying just so hard to reach you 已很努力嘗試接觸妳

Try to keep this thing alive 設法挽救這份情的壽命

You are the one that I need to speak to 妳是我想對話的人

Didn't you know there's a monster inside 難道你不知道有怪物在我心中

If you're gone I'll carry on then deep inside 如果妳離開 我會繼續但內心深處

I'll give my heart to the winter 我會把我的心交託給寒冬

If you leave I'll take this blade to carve your name 如果妳走了 我會用刀刃在我醜陋的一面

into my ugliness 刻上妳的名字

Summer's gone and there's no sun what have I done 夏天漸遠而那裡沒有陽光 我到底做了什麼

I lost my love to the winter 我失去了我的愛給冬天

Now my heart is cold and dark what have I done 我的心既寒冷又黑喑 我到底做錯了什麼

I've given our love away 我們的愛消失了